More of my story

Since I don’t speak about myself in sessions here is where I will communicate some of my experience.

So as mentioned I’ve spent more than 20 years in Western health care. But what I believe truly makes me an effective witness for others is that, in my personal life, I’ve experienced decades of disconnection.

My years in Western medicine

Until the summer of 2025, I worked in the Western health care world: first as a tech in oncology, then as a registered nurse. I spent years on various medical–surgical units (especially neurology), then in labor and delivery, and later as an OB‑GYN clinic nurse.

There’s no quick way to sum up those years, except to say that I was never truly at ease. I now understand that I was unconsciously in trauma responses, and that I was also deeply misaligned with many of the distortions and imbalances baked into that model of care: patriarchy, denial of our connection to the Earth and our own self‑healing potential, distrust of our ability and power to birth our own babies, and a drive for endless profit.

My heart is still broken open about it all. And yet, at the same time, it is full and resourced.

This is how I understand us as humans:

• We each carry both collective and individual trauma

• And we also carry the Great I AM, the Source of All, inside us

Both are present: the trauma and the Healer.

The wholeness is what we truly are, this immutable part of us that is irrepressible, that can make everything right and beautiful and whole in its own unique, authentic, imperfect perfection.

A “weird and unusual” beginning

In the spirit of trauma‑informed care, I won’t go into specifics about the causes of my trauma, to avoid activating anyone reading this. But in broad strokes: I had a weird and unusual childhood, adolescence, and early life.

It involved a lot of religion, trips to India, trying to be “spiritual” enough to be admitted into an ashram (I tried for 4 years), and giving all my power away to others.

Out of this subculture I catapulted into the “real” world at age 23 with:

• essentially zero sense of self

• no self‑trust or self‑esteem

• an already significant trauma history

That history set me up for an even deeper descent into what felt like hellish years.

By my mid‑to‑late thirties, I was buried under layers of shame, living with unprocessed complex trauma from abuse and many significant shock traumas. There were years of dark emotional and mental pain. It was not pretty. I was a wreck.

From lived experience, I know that suppressed or displaced pain does not disappear. It goes somewhere, maybe deep into our subconscious and our body. Sometimes people manage to personally avoid it, managing to displace it onto their children. But it has to go somewhere. Someone is effected.

And for us to be in integrity and ultimately whole, it has to be reclaimed. It cries out for resolution, to be heard. And the greater Self will always find a way .

How my healing began

My healing began through my body. That is how my Soul, Creator God, and the Angels came to me.

It did not happen through lofty spiritual concepts or waving some kind of spiritual wand through a big spiritual experience. I had likely been dissociated and disconnected since very early childhood. As mentioned before, I grew up in a very spiritual household where the neglect of the human side of life (intellect, emotions, education, physicality, economics, etc.) caused harm. Because of that, I’m extremely sensitive to the “spiritual bypass” tendencies in many new age and spiritual communities.

But the Divine is way larger than any single culture or mis‑application of Truths. Beyond all of that confusion, the Divine called me, through my very secular, human life.

The Great Mother aspect of God visited me during my labor with my daughter’s birth in 2015. I felt Her in my body, and She saved the day. I am deeply grateful. I bow to Her.

Then, in my postpartum time in 2016, I had a visceral realization, in one moment, like a million “aha”s at once:

My body was holding my trauma, in my very cells!

It seems obvious to me now, but at the time it was revolutionary.

I sought out somatic therapy as a client, and things slowly started to land. My Soul, God, and the Angels were helping me find my way to my greater Self, to my I AM, by bringing me back into my body.

Ceremony, the Earth, and the Great Mother

In 2021, I began attending local renewal ceremonies for birth workers, held by wise shamans and ceremonialists. I started connecting more deeply with the Earth and with the Great Mother.

Then, in 2022, through guidance and what can only be called miracles, I was led directly to Angelic frequency work. I apply angelic frequencies to our embodied state. We can consciously resource our “3‑D life” with the other parts of ourselves that exist in other dimensions. In one of these dimensions the Angelic frequencies exist. And it is not far away. It is within us, as all parts of us are. Angelics do the will of the Creator.

Things really started to change. I could, as I did the “shadow work” of radical honesty of my sense self, my feelings hold myself in a conatinher of Angelic and Source Love. This helped with the deepest wounds. Many things came up to be resolved, to be folded back into Love. Every day I work with this. It doesn’t gaurentee a smooth life. But regardless of external challanges I am deeply rooted and through grace I can find my center, my root, my Mother, my Truth.

I was given big clues about my work in this life during some of my darkest days,when I was quite young. I was told “You will use this in your life’s work” without knowing what that could mean. And when I saw women experiening profound trauma I knew someday I would find a way to be part of what helped women like her walk herself home. I facilitate the alchemization of violence, trauma, seperation. Spiritual healing is to be reconnected to Themselves, their bodies, and the Divine power within them, without bypassing their humanity. Informing their humanity. Serving our humanity.